cattle mutilation

2025.06.30

someone had a lot of pleather pants and skirts to donate. i almost (only almost) bought a pair.

[deeper]

cattle mutilation breathes and listens. watch your step, and be nice to it. please.

last update: 04 July 2025.

forge a trail back to this place?

this site is link free. that means you can link or unlink it at will without asking for permission. still, i'd love to know if you do.

it's really annoying

so stupid

[unrefined]

leave your mark. speak freely.

a website that isn't.

for my off-colour thoughts and things that just don't belong on my other websites. on cattle mutilation there are fanpages, recounts, half-formed thoughts, and so on. a dumping ground of sorts.

plus, it's an excuse to play with darker layouts. if you are familiar with my other sites, you will know i actually (somehow) prefer cuter aesthetics. this is a side project, and for that i am thankful, but it's one with a lot of love put into it.

this place is one big web, so please remember to click around. don't know how deep i want to go with this, though. i still have a filter. i'm not an idiot (anymore/yet)

cattle mutilation is designed for widescreen computers. i guess 4:3 aspect ratio isn't widescreen, but i think that's fine too, if that's your setup. if you're visiting on a mobile device, come back later on your desktop or laptop computer. [why?]

the world turns all the same. use it to your advantage

Cattle mutilation is the killing and mutilation of cattle under supposedly unusual, usually bloodless circumstances. Reportedly removed parts often include an ear, eyeball, jaw flesh, tongue, lymph nodes, genitals and rectum. Reports began in the late 1960s and continued into the 1980s. In that era, mutiliations were the subject of multiple independent investigations in the United States.

Many so-called mutilations are explainable as natural decomposition and normal predation. Multiple lines of evidence suggest some of the deaths might have been the result of an organized effort. Meanwhile, conspiracy theorists suggest cults, aliens, or cryptid (such as the chupacabra) were responsible.

— our foe Wikipedia

relationships

i tried to go for dinner with a girl last year, but she was too socially awkward for anything to work. we barely talked, aside from when it was revealed that we both had anthropomorphic interests. even that fell short.

she lived in a small town but we studied together for a while. she couldn't handle it. part of it was because she had to stay in a hotel three days a week just to make it. it was clearly damaging her, so she scrapped it.

our friendship(?) was just too stiff. i think the whole thing was set up by our relatives (her mother, my aunt). i'm glad we don't talk, but still, i hope she's doing well.

my best memory of it all is playing table tennis.

i've been talking to an old friend of mine lately. my relationships don't tend to last more than a few years, something i am trying to change, so everything still feels shocking. we are talking about people we knew six whole years ago.

i was a different person back then, as was he. the sound of each other's voices is still offputting.

and other things

i still draw with pencils i owned when i was in primary school, and before i moved across the city at that. i was seven years old at most when i last used these regularly, and now i am using them again. isn't that strange?

the outdoor mall in the city doesn't feel like it did when i was a child, except for when it gets dark. when it gets dark, and all the lights are on, i finally feel like i'm somewhere truly great

moreru

moreru are a band I've been in love with ever since the year 2021. Their music has such an appeal to me that I can't even begin to explain well... but I'll do my best anyways. I want to convey my love!

[learn]

2025.06.05

♰ i had a dream about someone who i lost touch with years ago. it made me sad.

♰ an older lady saw my ghoulish face paint and praised me

♰ my cat enjoys my presence again

2025.06.06 the subject is averse to being photographed

2025.06.28 a stranger cat. hello, darling.

[more?]

2025.06.08

i had decided, the night before, that i would go on a long walk. to clear my head, to have something to do. to not rot at home all day. to spend my time drawing and reading and such. the point is that i need to get out of the hole i'm in and do something with my life.

[deeper]

2025.06.30

nobody puts up music rotations anymore. why would they? most people don't have their own sites, and with things like streaming, handing out MP3s might as well be obsolete.

for fun, here is a playlist that may change from time to time. not all songs will be readily available on spotify, so consider it a gift from me to you.

let's exchange music; email me something you like?

[listen]